God, Your love hurts!
You know all too well of this painful love through Your sacrifice on the Cross. Yet, You don’t act in our lives expecting an equal return, but only fidelity to the daily tasks asked of us.
On the Solemnity of Our Lady of Mercy, my two sisters and I received a fuller outward sign of our consecration to Christ as His bride. The Bridegroom demonstrates His self-gift through humbly and obediently accepting death; stripped of His outer garments, He seemingly has lost all, or has He gained all? The icon of Christ the Bridegroom depicts brutality yet powerful omnipotence–paradoxical! He is Whom I love and Whom my sisters and I were clothed in, yet this act was only a manifestation of the inward transformation slowly being done in hiding, in the secret of our hearts.
Formation in religious life is such a unique opportunity to die to oneself while also receiving insurmountable and unexplainable graces. Honestly though, this is the faith any baptized Christian is called to live. The paradox that underlines the foundations of our beliefs is challenging, yet we must not succumb to fear. Our human nature so easily allows fear to consume our being and paralyze us from living as authentically as we were created to be. This emotion is unwarranted given Christ crucified and risen, yet we wrestle with understanding this merciful act of love.
God created the world out of nothing, so there is nothing He won’t do for us. God simply IS: present, alive, merciful, compassionate, loving, patient, faithful, a Father. With this next step in formation, I must live in the Truth that God is not distanced from me. Sure, I’m wounded and broken and in need of daily healing: none of this is ‘too much’ for God (even though I can be treading water and seemingly drowning).
“Yes, my daughter, I invite you to love Me specifically through the crosses you encounter.”
God’s invitation for me demands that I respond by offering Him my life through a consecration in religious life. How is He begging you to love Him? Offer yourself as a living sacrifice today! Wounds will be formed, but only imitating those of Whom you follow. Know that my sisters and I carry you in prayer! How can we pray for you? My desire is to offer my Novitiate intensely for the intercessory needs of the Church. Every day, every moment is grace. May you be filled today with such love. United in the suffering and joys of life, we stand at the foot of the cross, in hope. See you in the Eucharist!